One day I might learn not to get my hopes up... one day.
Now to add collapsing follicles to my list of crappyness.
Trying again next month.
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Monday, October 29, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
The waiting game...
Our ultrasound showed that it wasn't time yet for another iui. We will try again on Monday. On new meds now to increase the lining of my uterus, which was too thin.
I didn't cry so much this time.
We'll see what happens. Pin It Now!
I didn't cry so much this time.
We'll see what happens. Pin It Now!
Monday, October 22, 2012
Third times a charm...
The time has arrived finally... we have an ultrasound scheduled for thursday to see if we are ready to move forward with our third IUI.
I'm not not excited but I've not gotten my hopes up either... I feel like I've been here done that and I didn't get my reward so why should I believe I would get it now?
This is our last attempt for the year... I'm tired... we are tired...
I often find myself wondering how much more I can take? Maybe we just aren't supposed to have a baby... but the thought of it angers me more... I don't want to adopt, I want my own or none... I know it's selfish, but unless you are in my shoes you have no right to tell me otherwise. Lots of people live lives wanting what they can't have.
but even with all that being said and all the mixed up feelings I have... I hope it works this time. Pin It Now!
I'm not not excited but I've not gotten my hopes up either... I feel like I've been here done that and I didn't get my reward so why should I believe I would get it now?
This is our last attempt for the year... I'm tired... we are tired...
I often find myself wondering how much more I can take? Maybe we just aren't supposed to have a baby... but the thought of it angers me more... I don't want to adopt, I want my own or none... I know it's selfish, but unless you are in my shoes you have no right to tell me otherwise. Lots of people live lives wanting what they can't have.
but even with all that being said and all the mixed up feelings I have... I hope it works this time. Pin It Now!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Halloween fans
Here's a quick and easy craft project that makes a fun impact! Halloween fans!
These fans were made using paper from canvas corp and cuts from the cricut cart wild card and paper doll dress up.
Start by cutting paper into 3inx12in strips, I like to mix the paper up but you can use all one color too.
Accordion fold all of your strips, glue the ends together and flatten into a circle. Glue onto a back piece of paper and the let dry.
Decorate with pumpkins, bats and spiders and you're done!
Stick them on a stick from poking into planters or string them up to hang in a tree!
Happy Halloween!
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These fans were made using paper from canvas corp and cuts from the cricut cart wild card and paper doll dress up.
Start by cutting paper into 3inx12in strips, I like to mix the paper up but you can use all one color too.
Accordion fold all of your strips, glue the ends together and flatten into a circle. Glue onto a back piece of paper and the let dry.
Decorate with pumpkins, bats and spiders and you're done!
Stick them on a stick from poking into planters or string them up to hang in a tree!
Happy Halloween!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Gobble gobble!
I've been folding a lot of fans at work and when I saw this at a scrapbook store I was visiting I knew I had recreate it!
I folded the fans and sprayed them with tattered angels glimmer mist. I then cut the turkey out of the speaking of fall cricut cart. Added some glaze and glam and done! A perfect centerpiece item for under $5.00
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I folded the fans and sprayed them with tattered angels glimmer mist. I then cut the turkey out of the speaking of fall cricut cart. Added some glaze and glam and done! A perfect centerpiece item for under $5.00
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Living by Cycle Days
As much as I hate it I have found that I no longer live by calendar days, now I live my cycle days. Currently on CD26 and my anxiety is revving up for DC 31... will AF come or will it not? Part of me wants it to just get here so I can get through it and start the process on our third IUI... but another part of me still hopes that maybe we did it this time...
I feel like AF is going to come though, every stupid country song on the radio has me weeping like a baby, I'm sore everywhere and almost always tired. I've been trying to keep myself busy with holiday decorating and organizing my scrapbook areas, but I still find myself deep in thought over if we will ever get pregnant and if we will ever have a baby.
Found out recently that the newest baby to be in the family will be a girl, I'm excited, I will love this new niece of mine, but it's also so heartbreaking that she will make number 10 born into the family since we have been trying for one of our own. I can't help the feelings of being cheated somehow, of things just not being fair. I hate feeling so empty all the time.
With all that being said, I will continue on just like I always do. Waiting for my turn.
Michael Buble
I feel like AF is going to come though, every stupid country song on the radio has me weeping like a baby, I'm sore everywhere and almost always tired. I've been trying to keep myself busy with holiday decorating and organizing my scrapbook areas, but I still find myself deep in thought over if we will ever get pregnant and if we will ever have a baby.
Found out recently that the newest baby to be in the family will be a girl, I'm excited, I will love this new niece of mine, but it's also so heartbreaking that she will make number 10 born into the family since we have been trying for one of our own. I can't help the feelings of being cheated somehow, of things just not being fair. I hate feeling so empty all the time.
With all that being said, I will continue on just like I always do. Waiting for my turn.
Michael Buble
Haven't Met You Yet lyrics
I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.
I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.
And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
Mmmm...
I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.
Mmmm...
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But somehow I know that it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.
And someday I know it'll all turn out.
And I'll work to work it out.
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get,
Than I get, than I get, than I get.
Ohhh!
You know it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, to give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.
(I said love, love, love, love...)
I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet.
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Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.
I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.
And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
Mmmm...
I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.
Mmmm...
you_yet.html ]
But somehow I know that it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.
And someday I know it'll all turn out.
And I'll work to work it out.
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get,
Than I get, than I get, than I get.
Ohhh!
You know it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, to give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.
(I said love, love, love, love...)
I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet.
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